When last I posted here, I had ever intention of getting another post up in a few days. As usual, life intervened, and I am just now able to collect my thoughts. For those of you who are in your 20's, 30's, etc., I want to tell you self discovery is an ongoing thing. I think if we stop learning things about ourselves we have reached a time in our lives where we need to find someone to motivate us to keep ardently searching to discover what we are about at that certain stage of our life.
I have just reached the top of the precipice before jumping off next year into a new decade. Perhaps this is why I have been doing so much internal investigation of late. I think I have finally reached a point where I want to make peace with who I am ~ the real me ~ not the person other people think or project or tell me I should be. Here are the few of the things I have made peace with:
1) I am an artistic person ~ and for this reason I may see things a bit differently from a lot of my peers ~ and that's O.K. I need to express myself the way that feels true to me. Anything else is insincere.
2) I believe in the rightness of selflessness ~ to a degree. That being said, it is important that this not become your life force to the point you lose yourself. I am still working on finding a balance on this one.
3) I need to really work on getting rid of perfectionism in my life in regards to the things that don't matter. Some perfectionism is good, but it is very easy to let this rule your life.
4) I haven't picked up my camera in a few days. I also haven't posted for several of the prompts in the class, because they didn't touch my heart. I would have made myself do something or shoot something to post before ~ because it was what I was supposed to do. I am finally learning, since I am not being graded on this project ~ it is O.K. to skip a few prompts because forcing myself to participate will end up frustrating me and producing insincere and inferior shots. I guess it's the old quality versus quantity thing.
5) My body is healthy (thank God), but I am still trying to learn my limitations. What I have learned is, when I am exercising, I don't think I have any limitations: hence, I overdo and end up hurt or sick. Before continue doing what I have been doing, I need to come to terms with what I can safely do today rather than what I was able to do 20 or more years ago. This one is turning out to be a bit tricky.
These thoughts of mine are probably a bit boring to anyone who decides to peruse them. I understand. The reason I posted them was more to prompt you to think about your life and how you're living it now, rather than waiting to take inventory 20 or more years from now. Like a friend of mine told me one time "This ain't no dress rehearsel". Better to live the performance that is your life to your utmost fulfillment rather than to regret what you have are haven't done when it is time for the last curtain call.
Have a happy Easter and a blessed one. I will be back next week with something less serious and more fun.
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